Don't look to me

There have been occasions in which I have been asked by women of my age or younger, "what have you learned?," or, "what advice can you give?." My answer always seems to come haltingly with much thought and humility. In my head I wonder, "why would they ask me?" I'm still in my twenties and have barely begun to serve. Look to those women older and wiser." But they are looking at me. 

      A great part of what I have learned is to be always ready and always aware. Always ready to give an answer to them and God; and always aware of the eyes that are watching, theirs and Gods. 

I have not however, and I pray will never have, "arrived" at that point where I have all the answers. I am and must be always in a state of learning. 

As I look up to many great faithful women of the past and future, I know that these girls are looking up to me. I feel that I am a poor choice of observation for them. Only God knows. 

I then consider these great faithful women, Sarah Edwards, Lilias Trotter, Gladys Aylward, and many more even in our present. I believe that if given the chance to speak with one of them, asking the same questions that have been asked of me, they would also feel unworthy of them. They would feel that there are better role models, better women. They would feel that they are inferior. They are only doing what is their reasonable service to the best of their abilities. In their hearts they may say as I, "don't look to me."

As I serve I know I will always be looked upon. I say,"Look at those greater." Who greater than God himself. Yes, I must always be inferior to Him, always striving to be more like Him, and always desiring to serve Him more. So I say to all those looking, "don't look to me. Look to Him. For it is Him, I pray, who you see in me."